With the brilliant term “arm chair detectives” coined by Tim and Lance from the Missing Maura Murray podcast, there is a ton of room for amateur sleuthing. They question and squeak every little thing -whether Maura slept in the same hotel mattress as her dad to comparing distances from condos to ski resorts. These guys scrutinize fact and fiction for the right reasons.
My number one favorite thing about Missing Maura Murray and the case is the discussion behind the profile of who Maura Murray was in the days before her disappearance. She was/is very much a flawed person, especially in comparison to the cookie cutter type who gets national attention in missing person cases. That is not meant to be a rub. In the public’s eyes they’re happy, smiley, high achieving people who shouldn’t have come in between a tragedy. On the surface Maura is the “all American girl”: middle class citizen, former track athlete, nurse major at the University of Massachusetts. However, the profile that makes Maura more human is her past indiscretions. She made mistakes that crisscrossed into criminality. The narrative behind MMM is left for interpretation because of her troubles occurring at the peak of exploration and discovery in young adulthood.
Three sides to every story exists: life before disappearing, the investigation of the disappearance, and life after disappearing. This case spans 11 years. Events have shifted due to Maura never being seen again. A family waiting for answers. The former boyfriend probably married with kids today. Classmates and friends accelerating in advanced occupations. Maura is stuck in time at 21 years old.
She encountered problems dealing with credit card fraud resulting in probation. A day or two before vanishing Maura crashed her father’s Toyota Corolla into a guardrail while drunk (That car model was nice. My dad owned a Silver edition in 2004). I imagine her father being pissed. She ditches class on February 9 (been there done that) for a spontaneous getaway; potentially to a ski resort or a Bartlett condo located in New Hampshire. She buys alcohol on the way to a mysterious destination after emailing and calling her work supervisors, professors, and boyfriend one final time. A strong odor emitted from a diet coke bottle left in her crashed vehicle leaves the strong possibility Maura was drinking while driving. Wine was supposedly left in the backseat. Was the alcohol intended for a party of one or two?
I get the sense she felt like a screw up. She seems self destructive in my opinion. I don’t judge because she was only 21. Now that I think of it Maura was of legal drinking age. With that added benefit she was without parental supervision, living in a dormitory.
Out of sight. Out of mind.
I didn’t experience these things at her age. Personally I just think she felt lost and did not want to confront her problems. I’m the same way with things (mundane in comparison) at 23. I’d feel like a crippled fuck up if I crashed cars and stole credit. That’s not exactly a normal way to approach things. It’s very possible she was feeling depressed.
Depression precedes suicidal tendencies but also gives into lackadaisical behavior like one of the guys mentioned. When you’re depressed you’re going to be very selfish. You’re deep thinking about yourself – and not in the nice way. You feel like you’re the only person who can help yourself, while also feeling hopeless at the same time. Catch 22.
Perhaps Maura didn’t want to be a nurse. It could have been as simple as that, plus the other bad stuff. Since we are similar in age group and experienced some things, I feel I can get into her mind for a bit. With the suicide theory I’m reminded of a case where a Montana teen purportedly crashed her car into another oncoming vehicle. When you are young and acting out of impulse, unforeseeable consequences are bound to occur.